Thanks a lot for your interest Lychee. Some observations of yours are very right.
I want to get control of my life, that's for sure. That's why I made two decisions, so far, that I am very proud of. I have cut out videogames and tv. It's been a year, or so, since I decided these two things and I find myself a completely different person. I get bored even when just thinking of myself watching tv, for example.
I, also, find true what you say about charisma. It's something I would like to have. I don't want to make, only, a good first impression. I want to understand the principles that govern human relationships and be able to use them, which is more important by the way.
I have found some stuff on these subjects but it is overwhelming the fact that there is so much info available. I don't know where to start from. For example, I know that, even that I am a student, I have to find a job to earn money (and not rely on my father to take me with him to "help" him with his job during summer). But, I am fascinated by the books I read on what I can achieve if I have a clear goal that I want to try and come up with an idea that if applied will earn me money. Plus I want to have free time to use and refine my social skills and my father's job is exhausting leaving me with little, if no, time to relax.
Now, I think that if I had a variety of choices, for example I knew that I could do three particular jobs, then I could choose among them. And that is applied in any area of life. The problem is: How can you identify your choices?
I know there is potential in me. I just want to find a way to release it and I am frustrated at the fact that I don't know how.
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