Hi Whattodo
I used to work at a modelling agency. People often asked me 'Isn't it hard being around all those young, slim, gorgeous girls all day?'
They didn't mean that I was old, fat and ugly, just that some people are improbably physically blessed, and I was surrounded by them constantly. Anyone would feel bad, right?!
Truthfully, at first I did. After a bit though, I realised all those gorgeous girls had exactly the same problems as everyone else. They felt fat, they got pimples, they fell in love with guys that didn't love them back, they got bad grades, their boyfriends cheated on them or dumped them, they had parents who didn't understand them, they missed out on jobs, they had fights with friends, they failed classes. Also, they used to feel bad that they didn't look as good in real life as they did in magazines! Think about that for a minute.
Physical beauty is no antidote against trouble. So don't compare yourself on that level. If you can be happy in yourself with how you look, without thinking about what you look like next to other people, you will be attractive to others.
It's hard being a gay teen ( I assume you're young from your post, please correct me if I'm wrong). There aren't a lot of safe places you can go and meet other gay teens. My best advice would be to hang in there, focus on your own interests, focus on feeling good about yourself, and don't worry about other people. High school is temporary. You have the rest of your sexual life ahead of you, so even if your hormones are a bit out of control at the moment, if you don't feel comfortable coming out yet, just focus on getting comfortable in yourself.
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