reuniter, i hope things work out. i notice or feel several things about what you've said and i'd like to share them with the intention of being helpful.
- sometimes our highest good is not what we want on the surface. we incarnate with lessons we pick for ourselves, but most/many don't have conscious access to the things we specifically asked to learn and considered important.
there is no consensus about the role of highest good in intention manifestation, but my understanding is we may have even asked to block a specific thing we *think* we want to manifest IF we have decided it is not aligned with our highest good. at first that idea kinda sucks but then it's very empowering because WE are the ones who set it up this way - if it happens.
- i think you are currently in a place of wanting to use your wife. yes, i said that. what i mean is, you are so focused on how this could mean you don't get to see your son but you only seem to view it in that light - as her potentially taking him away. i don't see much here about how you want a reconciliation because you are deeply, madly in love with her. can you see how maybe she could pick up on this as well? maybe if you shift to a different set of reasons for manifesting reconciliation, it will also dissolve more of the resistance she may have?
- she is understandably jealous here. i think a part of you is proud that your son chooses you more often and you have such a close relationship. and there's nothing wrong with that! but if your wife decides to come back, she may be wanting or even demanding to be treated as a more worthy member of the family. and she would deserve to be, no matter what she has done. i know grudges are easy but they are not conducive to a clean slate either. and really, i'm not talking about just pretending this is more about your wife than your son - i'm talking about owning that it feels mostly about your son, and trying to work through that if you actually want to be with your wife, not just the mother of your child because that's the easiest way to guarantee access to him.
- i think you could benefit from something i think themaster touched on or maybe another poster. accepting responsibility for your role in this situation. when we are feeling especially hurt, it's easier and more comfortable to point to the other person as the primary source of the way things are working out. but that's not a very empowering or fair assessment... when two people are involved, BOTH of them contribute to the situation. rather than focusing your energy on what she has done, you can decide to shift into thinking about the ways you are also responsible for this. whether you seek to make amends for those things or change those behaviors/thoughts is up to you. no one else can make that decision for you.
most of what you have said about the situation is making her the bad guy. i'm just trying to help you see that, and see how some part of her likely senses this perspective and it could interfere with the stated goal.
- you can release your doubts by acknowledging them - saying 'i realize in this moment my mind says 'what about xyz' and then you make a conscious decision to let them go. everyone has a team of spiritual/energetic guides who look out for our best interest (yes, even hardcore science types
). you could speak aloud or in your head to request connection to your authentic guides and
whether you feel/see/notice a response or not, TRUST that they listened and have responded to the request. tell them you're connecting with them to hand over these doubts so you can manifest a reconciliation as quickly as possible if it is aligned with the highest good of all concerned. feel the tension lift as they collect that doubt energy.
ask them to replace it with something though, the universe abhors a vacuum. ask them to collect the energy of doubt and replace it with trust, confidence or whatever it is you feel you'd rather have.
i hope this helps, and i hope it doesn't seem like i'm simply minimizing your pain. well, i'm not dwelling on it so maybe that's actually true. i understand the situation as it currently is feels unpleasant - because, frankly, you CHOOSE to see it that way. i think several of these things i've said could be helpful, but i leave it up to you to decide. let me know if there's anything you want me to clarify or elaborate on.
about medication... i don't think it interferes with manifestation, but it can dull the emotions that our inner self is asking us to deal with and learn from. that can help sometimes and sometimes it amplifies the work we do later. in terms of strict connection to I-M, medication only interferes if a person energizes that belief.
p.s. i did not read every single word of the previous responses. if someone else has already said any of the things i brought up here, my apologies for not giving proper credit
