To better explain but without going into unecessary detail the situation went something like this...
me = happy, great, centered ----> did stupid thing with group of people without thinking ----> encountered extreme overreaction from highly unstable person (ie: threats, intimidation etc etc) -----> have been the only one to try to make ammends and take responsibility for my own part ----> now in the deep end as a result.
Although I realise this person's response is completely out proportion, his reaction has thrown me, and I have taken on the abuse he has directed at me. I can't help but feel like "i know this is whole thing is ridiculous, but no-one else seems to get themselves into these situations, what the hell is wrong with me?"
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