@cylon: yes it is about limits and what we tolerate. at this point the cost of losing those friendships and spiritual connections is worth the flak. last night my friends turned the idea of me being evil into a running joke, and i appreciated that more than i can say.
as i said before, there's no mods because it's supposed to be a place of free expression. when the founder created it i'm sure the honor system was what he had in mind, and there can be more responsibility when people have to handle their own words.
@Daffy: (btw i can't help but notice the irony... but that is not an invitation!) the thing is, the person who has been the nastiest is trying to make it seem like i'm the bad guy, like all my efforts to be a good person and be helpful to those who ask are just a power trip. i'm being framed as the malicious one or like some kind of psychologically abusive cult leader. he called my Jesusb*tch earlier tonight. i do admire the creativity though. i don't so much admire how he is trying to reverse the roles and frame it as pushing people to be authentic. (i'm usually very self-aware so if he had a point i'd be able to see it.)
also this community i'm speaking about became known as a place for people with bipolar, i'm one of the only ones there without that diagnosis. so you can imagine how things can get distorted, how a regular 'off day' pales in comparison sometimes.
i find myself thinking that karma may be the best source of consequences, and then i feel malicious myself for thinking that. i have a very strong feeling that the person who's done the most of this was sexually abused by his father, and he constantly tries to mistreat people because he is terrified of getting close to anyone... basically really strong defensiveness. he doesn't need or want my pity.
anyway, i got into ventilation mode there. i'm certainly open to any other ideas, thanks to you both for sharing your perspective.
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