Hey all, listen thanks for your support and advice. Its really hard, i know i no longer matter to her really. She was worried til recently she might be pregnant after we slept together (we had gone through this every month for as long as we have been going out) and i was the only person she could talk to, which was hard becuase i knew she wasnt and deep down she knew it too, but i love her so of course i was there for her. i knew that once that time of the month came she would be fine and she wouldnt need me anymore. all of which has happened. I also got her a job through my uncle, she txt'd to say "thanks for all yr help". the last time i heard from her it was brief, and i havent heard from her since. I mean she has told me she has kissed two guys since we broke up. I couldnt even contemplate doing that, i would feel like i am betraying my love for her. i dont know what to think, she told me she loves me so much, but if she can kiss other people then does she really? i want the hurt to stop, i wanna stop thinking about her, i dont wanna look at my couch and remember when we used to sit there, or when we used to walk down my road. i just dont want to think about her anymore because i seriously doubt she is thinking about me.
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