Though you failed the test, tell yourself you completely accept yourself. Nothing to do except accept it and move on, yes?
And remember, you will be taking it again. If you fail again, you can take it again. If you fail more, you can continue to take it more. Because you WILL succeed.
Money may be tight, but this is about your dreams. Your family will understand. It seems like your mom told a lot of people you took the test, because she supports your dream. She wants you to get into medical school because YOU want to get into it. She's telling others because she's "bragging" about you. She's happy that you are taking the test because she believed you would do well on it. She supports you, you should start supporting yourself too. Especially your beliefs.
Remember, it's not the end of the world if you fail something.
What happened since you didn't do well on this test?
You decided to take it again because you can.
What happens if you don't do well on the next test?
You can easily take it again, and many times after that if need be.
What happens if you tell your mom?
She'll be surprised, obviously. But I think she will support you. She loves you and cares about you. You were dealing with anxiety and stress. Anxiety on tests can fail you.
Seriously. I'm sure she will understand and you will feel RELIEVED if you tell her... like a big weight is finally off your shoulders.
My friend in math class in high school, she's real smart. She studies for daysss even though she always aces the tests and assignments. What happens on the final exam? She fails.
She was reallyreallyreally worried and stressed out even though she knew everything and always did well on all the stuff that was on the final. Yeah. This is what anxiety will do to you. She kept believing she wouldn't do well. She kept worrying about horrible outcomes that didn't happen yet. Unrecommended.
Remember to believe you can do it! Because you can.
In grade 7, when I was like 12 years old... my teacher was always stated that his favourite quote was, "If at first you don't succeed... try, try again." Okay. I don't remember the exact wording of it lol.
So yes. The test may be hard but you studied for it. If you worry about something, ask yourself what happens in the end- and what other things you can do if the "worst" thing happens. Yeah. It's really not the end of the world.
