[StarMerkaba]

I'm not sure if I'm in the right category for my thread, but I have a question about harm to others and coming clean:

If you did something harmful to someone else before you've woken up as a spiritual person, and the harm has long past, but your guilt remains, is it necessary to speak to that person on this issue if you know that's not exactly possible? Is there any healing on you end if you cannot speak to that person face to face about the harm you may have caused? You are not especially afraid to speak to that person, just weary about the harm talking to them may open. We were both kids, I was just the much older, meaner, less guided of the two, and I know I took advantage of his weaknesses, and after years of contemplation I seriously think talking about our dreadful past may not solve the issue, mostly because we are on different walks of life now. I know he has a lot of issues right now because of his dad leaving, and his family and maybe even because of me, but I also hear he's doing good in a lot of other areas. I know he might feel terrible about a lot of mistakes he made too, so even though I want to take responsibility face to face, I seriously question if I should. I feel like not talking to him would be like a bridge never closed on my part, and maybe even cowardly, but I'm also not sure if talking to him is even possible. Like, I would be disturbing anything he has done for himself this far, and may not appreciate me barging into his life right now. Is there healing without direct communication, and if so where should I begin, because my open doors to self responsibility have now made me aware of my choices as a young person and I feel beyond bad. Not only was I a kid, but I was a totally different person then than I am now. I just don't want him to think I don't know or don't care, and know that my guilt is over whelming.