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Originally Posted by blossom  This is timely for me as I've been seriously considering this for a while...at least for a month, won't hurt. I'm tired of being so virtuous...I've been being good for so many years now...I want to have some fun...of the indulgent kind.
The only thing is I've been doing well in the martial arts I train with and my teacher is really happy with my progress, but he has a definite judgement against drugs and excess...and he' is a reiki master, so I just know he'd be able to sense that I've been indulging, and it would probably affect my progress? I've waited for years to find the right dojo for me so I don't want to blow it now...and he would expell me if he found out...(which is part of the appeal I think  ) Maybe I'm regressing back to when I had just left school, but I've always loved my naughty side...I just went all straight for a while and worked on myself...but now that I am surrounded by all these healthy people, all I want is to take drugs? Woe is me   |
In a book called "On Becoming an Alchemist", the author mentions a form of Buddhism wherein new students are required to follow strict regimens before they're initiated into the more advanced practices. The advanced students often show up drunk, they have a lot of personal problems, take drugs, etc. New students usually mistake them for the newbies.
The point she was making is twofold: 1. The advanced don't always look advanced. 2. It's alright if things get a little messed up from time to time, especially as an alchemist. It's when things are at their most unstable that there's the most creative potential. Internal upheavals are great material for transmutation.
Why not take a month off? Do a little running each day to keep your body conditioned and to soften the effect of any indulgences you partake in. Hell, if you're like me, exercise is a form of indulgence (I'm happiest when I can barely move). Fact is, if you think this would be good for you, or at the very least it's something you mean to do, you can find a way. The alternative is to make excuses.