Doesn't sound like borderline AT ALL, unless you have lots of other issues you are not sharing about. Doesn't even sound like you have any disorder (even though I certainly see your struggle in the present situation).
Sometimes our passions and ambitions are like flower seeds. They need the right environment to grow. Maybe yours need to trust that they will be hold with care, first of all by you. Maybe you just need some time to get clear of your own position in life, and step by step learn to stand up for that. Or to allow yourself to be ambivalent imagining the needs both staying with your parents forever and moving out would meet for you.
Could you find the money for a few sessions with a life coach who could help you find your power in this present challenge? (sometimes that can go really fast, once you look at it from the right angle and allow your mind to rest for a while)
Curious, because I have never met anybody with a big interest in hurricanes: What interests you about them?
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