[rei]

i don't quite understand why you want to use the private message option. this thread is for discussing spiritual guides and that's what we are doing, and the thread is actually pretty old so i think, since we're on topic and it's a few months old, no one cares if we simply discuss this here. if there is some reason you aren't comfortable discussing it openly you can send a PM but i don't really think that is necessary.

i also think you're scared of losing your friend. you're obviously resisting the 3x question idea because you're afraid of what will happen if this friend really doesn't have your best interest in mind. that's understandable. but if this friend distracts you from your path or even just takes time away from meaningful real-world interactions, your loyalty may not be needed for you (meaning your loyalty might better be toward yourself). but i totally understand if this is what you've always known why you would hesitate.

were you being literal when you said you couldn't live without her? or were you saying you don't want to even bear thinking about how lonely you might feel?

does your friend ever want to talk when really, you were in the middle of enjoying yourself?

maybe i am totally off, but again with the weird vibe for what you're describing. the way my own guides work, they want me to remember that i am the co-creator of my experience. to keep in mind how much power i really have. so any time i start relying on them too much, they get quiet so i can remember how i am totally capable of figuring stuff out without running it by them. they have my best interest in mind, and apparently i've asked them to get quiet if i start to depend on them too much. so the first day they get quiet i'm a little sad, miss the way it feels when they connect, miss how easy it is to get answers to my questions. but then i remember that i'm supposed to honor my personal power and find answers within me, not always by asking someone or something what to do. so within a day or two i get over the initial loneliness because i realize it really is for my highest good.