I had a huge downswing during the middle of highschool (depression, bipolar symptoms etc), and the thing I found most important, absolutely critical to getting out of it was this:
Believe in yourself!
You've been told that you're going to have this depression for a few years and you're just going to accept that and live with it? When I realised that I was depressed, I basically said '**** this, I'm not staying like this'. Who was anyone to tell me that I couldn't change? And yes, I tried and failed many many times (self harm, including emotionally hurting others sometimes), but with the support of one of my closest friends at the time, I just keep trusting and believing that I wasn't a **** person, that I knew I remembered times when I was happy and content before so why shouldn't I be again? You're worth it. Your situtation may be awful, and it sounds like it, honestly; I'm another of those anti-snob people. But even now, you already sound like you're looking at options, feeling out the waters as it were. That's awesome! Keep it up, try some of the suggestions mentioned earlier for getting the chemicals out of your system that are pulling you down (exercise, arts etc) and find a counsellor that doesn't label you but supports you in your efforts to make the best of your life.
Many, many hugs to you! You've got a tough path to follow but damn well follow it and find a life you enjoy living, whether that means changing the situtation drastically (eg, moving colleges) or changing it internally to better fit you and the person you want to become as you become a proper adult.
Good luck!
Wolverine
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