[mtrimpe]

I have a serious question for everybody here.

I while ago I developed a truly powerful state of mind. Let's say I was fully immersed in subjective reality, on the border of the consciousness levels of joy and peace. I since let go and slipped down quite a bit, but what I found very, very disturbing when I was in that state was the immense influence I had on people.

It was as though everyone's state around me was flexible like wax in my hands. I could mold them, their reactions and what I would have considered to be their identity effortlessly. If I wanted a person to smile they would smile, if I wanted someone to cry they would cry, if I wanted someone to feel good about themselves they did, if I wanted them to feel hurt they did.

Although the state itself felt really good, I noticed that I suddenly felt very much alone. I felt like there suddenly were no other people anymore, there was just 'me' and whenever I would encounter something I couldn't control it would very quickly become a part of 'me'. It felt like I was the only one in this entire universe.

Now, after having been out of that state for almost a year I look back and wonder if there was 'something wrong' with that state, if there was 'something wrong' with having so much influence, or if I simply faced an existential truth; that I am alone; and that I was afraid of truly facing it.

I would LOVE to hear how people here feel about what I've described above.

Does anyone recognize it?