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Originally Posted by Phil Watson

True. I've came to that conclusion before as well. I prefer to believe that by working with other conscious people, we can work towards and eventually achieve freedom for all, but perhaps I'm just being naive.

Roll with the times. If a large number of people want to wake up, freedom will become the norm. If they don't, do whatever you want-your actions will disturb their slumber. People are so down on those they consider "evil" but the truth is every powerful person contributes to someone else's awakening, it's only a matter of how they do it. "Evil" darkworkers give you a means by which to test your strength. Enlightened darkworkers will wear you out just as well, if not better, than their psychopathic counterparts. "Evil" lightworkers give you ideals to struggle against. If you overcome them, you gain the will to stare right into the face of a god and assert truth over external authority. Enlightened lightworkers inspire people to live in accordance with the best of their nature.

considering how strongly that resonates with me, perhaps I was meant to be a darkworker. my idea of striving for excellence is to attempt to create that ideal world, where such dualities cease to exist.

Duality is intrinsic to our existence here, but the end result of the lightworker/darkworker path is to transcend duality. What that really means I can't say; I doubt I could comprehend it.

that goal is lofty to the point of being arrogant, but it's been my dream for as long as I can remember. I suppose scarcity is inevitable though, because the more one grows, the more unique they become, until reaching the ultimate scarcity: there's only one of them to share with the entire world, and so the concept becomes them. in a twist of irony, hypothetically, if everyone became wholly individual and unique, that 'ultimate scarcity' of being a unique person would become mediocrity. damn, I went in a circle. although, I've heard it said that one should seek to be ordinary, because being ordinary is in and of itself an expression of divinity. perhaps the answer lies somewere in that.

If everyone were polarized and followed their path to completion, that world would be so different from what we know words like "mediocre" would cease to be relevant. In my experience, it's quicker to try and understand the things we can grasp and save what we can't for later. Polarity, in its most basic form, is fairly simple. It's an intuitive philosophy you may construct within your own thoughts well before you come across any literature which speaks of it. Post polarity, or non-duality, is referred to time and time again as something which is unspeakable, not because it is forbidden, but because there are no words for it. Trying to think your way through it only sets you back because every time you gain a genuine insight you'll pervert it by translating it into words borne of duality.

I'll give you a little hint concerning mundane: I've often been told that when I meditate I should focus my eyes on something innocuous, like a stone, while breathing rhythmically. In the moments when I've been able to focus intently, I've heard things I'd never heard and seen things I'd never seen. It is by focusing on the mundane that you learn to pay attention. You can't expand beyond your sensory perception if you only give your attention to what's interesting.

Thank you for the insight you have provided. I feel that I understand the paradigm of the darkworker, and its relation to me, much better now. I'm so grateful to have a place like this to discuss the things that interest me most.

It's how I gain my understanding. Best of luck to you.