[rei]

i think sexuality is very complex. i also think we exist on a continuum, we are all omnisexual beings. i've always been a slightly masculine female. as i mentioned in another post, i thought i might be bisexual and so i explored two-female intimacy as far as one can take it. i enjoyed the foreplay but i did not enjoy the logistics of what came after (much respect to guys for your willingness to spend so much time, er, you know).

i was just reading Erin's response to the polyamory questions that were posed in January. when i read how she considered sex with another woman i felt an inner twinge. at first i thought maybe it was how i enjoy the idea of two-female sex, but so far have not enjoyed the practice. i thought that meant i'm ultimately more heterosexual than not, and now i'm not so sure.

i know there are gay, lesbian, possibly bisexual or transgender individuals who visit this forum. i invite their ideas as well as others. i've heard, when it comes to homosexuality, there's often no doubt at all. you just know, often from a young age. often there's an encounter in childhood. i actually had an all-female version of 'house' when i was a child.

so now i am basically confused. i figured the answers would be clear-cut, you either know or you don't. so what can you do with the feeling of maybe? i'd like to straighten out where i stand on this (so to speak, lol?) before i examine the potential risks and benefits of revisioning how i interact with my world.

also i don't really see myself in the role of the more-masculine partner even though i'm a bit of a non-athletic tom boy. i know same-sex relationships aren't always defined by those roles, but this is something else that contributes to my confusion.

any ideas for how i can sort this out? if there is anyone here who went through this stage of confusion i'd especially appreciate sharing how you came to greater clarity.