Good for you, shasah! Keep it up
I went on the fifth date yesterday. We went to the movies and walked around the city, holding hands. Ended up at her place where we had a long, honest and personal talk.
She told me why she had asked me the questions about past relationships - and asked me for more details. She had lived with someone who hadn't lived with a girl before and he freaked after eight weeks and suddenly broke it off and she had to leave pretty much overnight. She was a bit scared about the prospect of having that happen to her again. After that relationship, she found a guy with an alcoholic father, who hadn't processed it at all and had just bottled it up - that lead to a lot of problems.
Soooo.. I told her the truth. That I don't have a lot of experience with relationships because I used to be very shy and overweight, that it had changed when I got cancer some years ago and that I actually had an alcoholic father as well until he died about a month ago - but had processed it, unlike the last guy. Seeing as she was going to know all those things at some point if we're to have a serious relationship - I thought I might as well be brutally honest and tried my best to calmly explain that I'm not like the other guys, don't have any commitment issues and that I'm very ready for a real relationship.
I think it was the right thing to do and it felt good to get it off my chest. We kissed before I left and the last thing she said was: "I have a hard time letting you leave, now that I've finally gotten to kiss you".. so it can't be all bad
