this is an answer by the great enlightened master osho about a person who says he is afraid of doing things,or participating but also wants to do things to know his potential
Mm, I understand. You don't know your own strength -- nobody knows, hence the problem. You don't know what you can do and what you can be. And I can understand. It is difficult to know unless you have done it. By doing it you come to know what you can do. The potentiality in itself cannot be known unless it becomes actual.
Everybody is so infinitely potential, but if you are simply waiting for somebody to do it for you, it will never happen, because there are things which cannot be done for you by anybody else. If you want to move in love, nobody can do it for you. You will have to fall in love. If you want to grow, nobody can grow for you. You will have to grow. Yes, others can help, they can show the path, but you cannot be dragged. That's what you are waiting for.
You are waiting for some father figure who comes and takes hold of you, and even against you, takes you. Nobody is going to come. You are waiting for Godot. That waiting can be eternal, and it will be a sheer wastage. You have to catch hold of your own potentiality, and you will have to start working on it.
Jesus has a beautiful saying, precisely for you: Those who have, more will be given to them.
Those who don't have, even that will be taken away from them. So if you really want to be caught by some force bigger than you, you will have to earn it. It cannot just happen as you are. At least you have to throw the net into the river. If you simply sit on the bank, nothing is going to happen. The river abounds in fish, but you have to throw your net. Then waiting will be meaningful.
Yes, after throwing the net one has to wait, but then waiting is meaningful because one has done something for it; one has earned it. But if you simply sit on the bank, asleep, then your waiting is pointless. Take a jump into sannyas and wait. Start doing meditations, do a few groups here... and have a little courage. Because if you have, I can give you more. If you don't have, nothing is possible.
The maxim looks a little absurd and anti-communistic, because ordinarily we think that those who don't have, they should be given more; the poor should be given more. And the saying says, 'Those who are rich, they shall get more. Those who are poor will lose even that which they have.' But it is really of a very fundamental nature. It is so.
If you start singing, more and more songs will be coming to you. If you start dancing, your body will start melting into dance and your body will start growing wings. Your body will become more fluid and you will be thrilled with new dreams and new dances.
You will become a receptor for more. If you paint, more paintings will start floating in your mind. Your dreams will become more colourful, more psychedelic. Visions will start following you like shadows -- but the basic step has to be taken by you.
They have a saying in Egypt that if you walk one step towards God, He walks a thousand and one steps towards you -- but only when you walk one step. If you don't walk one step, nothing happens. So waiting is not bad, but you have not chosen a right time for it. Waiting is beautiful, but take the first step. That first step simply shows, 'I am available.' The first step simply indicates, 'If something is given to me, I will appreciate it. If something is transferred to me, I will welcome it. I am ready. I will drink and absorb it. I will keep it in my heart as a treasure.' Your first step is a gesture
When you participate, then you know.
So that is happening in the spiritual world also. People come from the West. They go from this ashram to that ashram, and they watch what is happening. They have forgotten how to participate. Hence my insistence for sannyas. It simply means don't be a spectator. Commit yourself. Go into it. Know it by participation -- and there is no other way to know it.
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