Hello there,
Very interesting post this! When I read it I get the impression that you are trying to find your purpose by thinking about it in an abstract way. But it seems to me that a person's sense of purpose will come naturally out of doing what they love and what has meaning for them.
Is there nothing you are passionate about? I would suggest to forget about purpose for a while. Is there something you love to do so much you would do it for free? If you can't think of anything, maybe you should try out more things.
I have always been passionate about music since I started playing guitar at 10 years old. But the only reason I know music is my passion is because my mom paid for guitar lessons at that age! If I had never started music lessons I might have felt an interest for it, but I never might have known how much I love it and how much it means to me. So I think the only way to find out what gives real meaning to your life is to try lots of different things. You mention you have already had lots of jobs, but did you pursue those out of the need for money or because you were really interested in them?
My suggestion would be to stop thinking about it so much, and instead simply try out lots of things that you are interested in. Forget about what's possible or not and simply follow your intuition/heart about what kind of work would be meaningful to YOU, and then go and find out if it really is. My personal experience is that I do much better thinking by combining it with action than just sitting around at home thinking about things. Because when you go out and try stuff you get experiences which greatly help to achieve new insights that simply won't come from thinking throughs things at home in an abstract manner.
Hope this helps somewhat, and I wish you best of luck with finding meaningful work!
Manuel
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