Shift your focus. Stop looking and waiting and try to let it flow. Ask your self what do you reallyy want in life? How do you want to live. Any thought image or anything that pops into ur head right it down. Its not an easy question.
Dont freeze the confusion or u keep manifesting the confusion. Let you emotions flow, let them be in ''motion'' and see if they have something to teach you. I really hope the best for you and thats from the bottom of my heart.
Heres a quote i also found helpful
''To find out what you want, figure out everything you dont want, and youll wind up with what you need'' ~ momo