You are God.
You cannot "dissolve."
You can only Awaken to a realization that You are MORE than what you currently believe yourself to be.
When you awaken from your dreams, what is it that dissolves.... you, or the dream? The dream, of course. You continue to exist. You even retain memory of the dreaming ego that you believed for a short time to be You. But when the dream world dissolved, you did not go with it. You merely awoke to an even greater ego, and said, "Aha! It was only a dream."
I submit that your experience was akin to this, but your fear kept you from awakening to a greater awareness of your Self. If you wish to experience your next "awakening," then I can only advise that you meditate towards adjusting your belief system to expect AWAKENING as opposed to DISSOLVING. Expect that when your soul "graduates" from its current state of awareness, that you will experience it as an "Aha!" moment; the same feeling you get when you realize you'd been dreaming -- and KNOW that you will continue forward with complete memory of your current, limited awareness, but now your consciousness will have EXPANDED to a greater awareness of your true self. Expect and BELIEVE that, and you will no longer fear dissolution, and should then be able to experience the expansion.
I celebrate your growth, and even envy you a little. But not too much as I'm having much fun playing at my current level.
~ RS  |