My dear I think most of the women that have been married for over a decade feel that way in some moment in time. It is like and overdose of the same person who didn't turn out to be what we imagined. We want them to be stronger than we are, to be the primary bread winner, to woe us and make us feel loved and in the special. And if possible to help around the house. Oh I can go on and on with my "requirements" after 20 of marriage years and 4 kids. But they are just human and little boys who rarely grow up stuck in these grown up lives with various roles they are supposed to play and are scared big time sometimes. My husband is a big shot but I know who he is really (so does he know me). A few years ago I wanted to kill him every other day how much he went on my nerves. Divorce was on my mind all the time. And then I decided to be the best wife for him and see what happens. I made it a 30 day trial
and it worked. The funniest thing is that the love for him "returned" I do not mean the knee shaking, butterflies in my stomach way, just a nice mature love and devotion to a guy that has been here for me for 2 decades inn his own way. I know he still loves me more than I love him. I am not content and I am not accepting this as a "fact of life", sometimes I wish he found somebody to love him for what he is fully and I could move on. But it is easy for me to say with my kids all grown. Give it a bit more time. I know you can live alone, so can I, but try everything first before you close the door behind you. He just might surprise you.
Love m