[loveliketheflowers]

Hello......I am having a really hard time staying at home with my gparents. I love them dearly but they are very judgmental, with old school values, and never seem happy or satisfied with me and my life. I am twenty four years old and I am not perfect but I am not a bad person nor do I hurt people or want to hurt anyone. I am very respectful of other people and all I want in my life is to be in a peaceful environment and happy with myself and able to take care of myself and I do not feel that way living here. My gfather tells me he wants me to be "perfect" (his words) and he wants me to be in a office or better than everyone else, but I am doing the best I can right now. I go to school full time and work also, and they still want to have me on a curfew or home at a certain time. And if I am ten minutes late from when I said I would be home they give me an attitude or give me the silent treatment and don't talk to me at all for a few days and there is a lot of tension in the house. I am very tired of being treated this way when I am doing nothing wrong at all. I respect them and respect there rules, sometimes not going anywhere for days and if I leave once they become unhappy. I have been looking for rooms for rent and checked a few places out in person and really want to move by the 1st. The only thing holding me back is my grandparents and having their approval and I don't want to be yelled at or not have their support. I know they want me to stay here they tell me it is free and it is my house anyway. But I feel like it is not my space and I am so limited in what I can do which is pretty much nothing. I do nothing all day but go to school and to work and study and I have no social life because my friends get off work in the evening after 5p and want to hang out at 8p or 9p and my grandparents tell me that is too late to be out. Nothing makes them happy it seems like. They always want me at home and in my room and I can't take this anymore. I really want to move. I know I can afford it and this is the mature step I need to take to make my life better and happier. Do you think this is a good idea and what should I keep in mind if I do move? Also I feel like I won't be able to tell them I want to move because I will be judged or yelled at, what should I do on the g/p situation and how should i tell them or should i tell them at all? Am I making the right decision by wanting to move and have my own space? I want to move so much but I feel like something is holding me back (myself,my anxiety, my worries) or something will go wrong and I will have to keep staying here, forever. I just don't feel like its healthy for me staying here anymore when I am an adult (twenty four yrs old). Please help.