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By Royce, Yesterday 04:11 PM
I hit an area of social drag a while ago, where communicating with friends became very difficult because they would see me as this character they've built up in their mind, and not respond well when i broke the continuity of that character.
I wanted to know if there were other people out there experiencing events like that and how you dealt with what was happening, and the turn out.
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Yes, I experience that when I'm around my family and around people from my former religion.
Social drag is a very good way of putting it, because it feels like they drag me back to who I use to be, if I'm not careful.
I think of it as a meditation, and a way for me to burn off/transmute the vestiges of my former self that linger. For me, it's been a long process, because I'm just starting to get what the process actually is, and I've been bumbling around for years.
Basically, I think it wouldn't bother me at all if I had processed all my stuff. To the extent that it bothers me, that is an indication that I have deadwood that needs to burn off/transmute. It's never the other person, or the situation IOW.
I think I could comfortably be anywhere and with anyone if all my stuff was processed.
And I think that my soul brings up precisely the situations I need to be in to point out what is still needing to be processed, so there is no use resisting what comes up. I do resist, but I'm beginning to know better.