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Originally Posted by Manomanman  You're not being honest in your original post. If you really are satisfied with your current work, you wouldn't be strongly motivated to post here.
I think you're looking for validation. If you want some, here it is: you sound happy.
It sounds like you're trying to get "drunk" on joy. Trying to live life faster than you need to. Just keep riding the wave you're on, and when that wave crashes to the beach, be sure to do whatever it is that got you to where you are now. |
thanks for your input
actually, as I wrote, it sounds like a paradox so finding a certain incongruency in the surface isn't that hard when I write "I'm happy but I feel isn't the right thing"
but I guess I'm in a position that's similar to Steve's one when he was working on the Game Dev world.
it was something he dreamed about when he was younger
it was something he worked for to achieve
it was something he achieved
it was something he was feeling it was "just fine"
but later he found that wasn't his real purpose.
more likely I (lightly) feel the same. I say "lightly" because this feeling is not powerful, is not screaming out loud...it's like a faraway voice that's whispering me something about it...not clearly "you've got to change this or that"
it says something more open ended like
"I'm not sure the "art world" is your world"
then I try to focus on what I love about working in the music field and I find that what matches with my life purpose is:
- I like to tell stories and tales and music, being such a powerful way to touch the heart of people and to enrich the everyday life experiences,
is my favourite "media" to do this.
I've got tons of ideas that flow thru' me so easily that is clear as the sunlight that is one of my most powerful skills.
and til' here still sounds great
but when I think about other parts of the art-music world you deal with when you're a musician, I just don't feel
"interested"
I just don't feel I'm part of this world naturally (like jeff gordon is naturally part of the racing world...he can do lots of other different stuff but racing is his main home) I can be part of it of course it surely has been generally pleasant most of the time so far. but I don't want to say to myself "c'mon..it's just fine"... cos I want to live a g.r.e.a.t. life. I know I've got to do it and I know I'll do it. I won't stand to get 3 if I know I can get 10
in any situation
here I'm trying to
figuring which one is the world that I belong to. where I can find people that resonate like me and I can easily cooperate with with much greater flow.
I look forward to hear something from you.
I really appreciate it