That's pretty rough Jack.
A couple of things I will say are:
--You can only attract for YOURSELF.
Nobody else can offer vibration for you, or you for them. Therefore, you are only responsible for YOUR experiences, nobody elses'.
--Also, while it is understandable to have fear, having been raised in a religion that promotes fear of God, please believe me when I say there is nothing to fear.
God, or Source, is not so weak that is has to use fear as a weapon to get you to do its bidding. What YOU want, is the *SAME* as its bidding. See how much more efficient that is, to have a given entities' NATURAL inclinations be automatically in line with the will of divinity? Fortunately for us, God is not brain damaged.
Now, having said that. FEAR is your ONLY problem.
When you feel fear, it can only mean ONE thing -- you are focusing your attention in such a way that it is in CONTRADICTION with your desires. A belief is merely a thought, or statement about reality, that you repeated to yourself so many times, that is has become grooved in your consciousness as a pattern. It can be overcome with effort.
Your belief/thought HAS to match your intent/desire, or your manifestation will not occur easily. Sometimes its hard to know what we are thinking, we are not always aware that we are thinking about the absence of what we want rather than the abundance of what we want. The vibrational difference is HUGE however.
It is far easier to pay attention to your emotions, which are absolute vibrational indicators of what you are putting out. When you feel BAD, it means you are attracting what you don't want, when you feel GOOD, it means you ARE attracting what you desire. So you see how fear is absolutely detrimental to your situation? You need to rise above it. Own your own power, let go of your beliefs which place all your power in a childish God who punishes you for not doing what it says.
Trust me, if you'd ever interacted with a real "higher" being you would instantly leave thoughts of a vengeful wrathful god behind forever in a heart beat. Higher beings are so wise, loving, and non-judgmental. They are your closest friend, and want nothing but infinite freedom and abundance for you.