[Majesticzero]

One year ago I told myself I wanted to change my social life. In the last year I've changed a lot. I've become more positive and happy. But until this day I haven't become more social.

Here is the story.

When I was going to primary school I always was very lonely. I think this has to do with my introvert personality. The second thing that comes in mind is my parents. They've never been social. They don't have a lot of friends so I didn't really learn how to 'be' social. Me being lonely at primary school changed into being bullied all the time.

When I went to secondary school things changed a little. I got a couple of 'friends'. The problem was that I could never become real friends... I could never get 'close' with people. As in: know them really good and see each other often.

After secondary school I got a couple of the same 'friends' as in secondary school. I went out with them in pubs but never went to their homes.
Also after I changed completely about 2-3 years ago (becoming more positive and changed clothes etc.) they all left me.

In this current period I go a lot to my sports centre and I talk to a lot of different people. But I never get further than just talking.

How can I get to know them better? Like going out with them?

I feel really stuck. I get better at talking to strangers, but going a step further seems impossible at the time.