i think you need to remember your personal power.
i recently gained experience providing therapy to survivors of sexual abuse so i am pretty familiar with the spaced out thing.
there is a specific technique - most sexual assault counselors know of it, if they aren't certified themselves they can get you connected with someone who is certified. it's called EMDR and basically it helps with flashing back to snapshots of the scenario. people can flash back without realizing it (what i mean is, even if someone doesn't see a mental picture of what happened, that person's mind can still be going back to the moment of trauma), drawing attention to a past moment can lead to the spaced out thing. i recommend finding a counselor who knows EMDR - a colleague of mine in the professional realm actually sought this method to help her get over the death of a child and it only took one session - everyone's experience with it is unique but i mention that it only took one session because i think you could use some hope
another thing i would recommend, also would need someone qualified, it's called soul retrieval (this is not the same as the religious idea of a soul, it's different). it can be done in person and some practitioners can do it by long distance, like over the phone or even while you sleep. thing is though you should shop around to find someone who seems right and who has a reasonable price - there are practitioners on the web, most of the good ones will probably be certified in core shamanism and have "FSS" near their names. when people experience any type of trauma, in a lot of cases it causes a piece of their essence to jump out of them. a person who knows how to perform a soul retrieval goes and finds the missing piece of the self and returns it to the body. if a part of the self is missing it can cause a feeling of being spaced out, not as aware of your body (for example, bumping into furniture) and basically a sense of something missing.
i think either of these would help you. i also think you could give counseling another shot. maybe you didn't have a strong connection with the counselor you saw before or maybe it was an issue of trust. but i think it's worth trying again.
hope this helps, if you want more info about any of my suggestions let me know - and welcome to the forums!