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Originally Posted by Angela  It's not that I feel it's wrong or that I'd be a bad person; more like I don't want to be trapped by obligation and weakness... from watching my mom in her marriage, vehemently refusing to be helped by anyone because of the price she paid, I decided I'm like her -- I'm on my own; I don't want to pay the price, too. |
Well, that's exactly what I mean. What if you take the goods, but don't pay the price? Refuse to be obligated by what you receive, but receive it nonetheless. I think you're subconsciously trapped by the idea that everything has a price and must be paid for, which is really hard to get over because it sounds like such a good idea, and anything else sounds like stealing. What if you risked being called a thief, took people's help, and didn't have to give them anything back in return, not even a thank-you-very-much? What if you didn't have to apologize for being the recipient of aid, or even be grateful if you didn't want to?