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Originally Posted by The Cloud  Is it wrong to take advantage of people? I think that's what you're feeling now; that it's wrong of you to exploit people for what they could give you. You're afraid to be the bad girl that uses people. What if it's wrong but you did it anyways? What if you became the bad person that you want to be, but are afraid of? Why do you have to be a good person? |
It's not that I feel it's wrong or that I'd be a
bad person; more like I don't want to be trapped by obligation and weakness... from watching my mom in her marriage, vehemently refusing to be helped by anyone because of the price she paid, I decided I'm like her -- I'm on my own; I don't want to pay the price, too. I realize that's not The Truth (consciously, from a grown-up perspective) but my little "I'm on my own gremin" is nattering and gromishing right now!
It's like I believe it's easier to be on my own, when it's more true to say it's more of a
struggle. I'm resisting, alright!
Thanks for the insight, TheCloud.