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Hotrox · 10-15-2009, 10:57 PM

Well it's not just that one isolated instance that's causing all this confusion... it's just a bunch of things being crammed together. For example tomorrow my room mate is having a party at our apartment and obviously I'm going to be here but I really just don't want to participate. I just can't figure out why; if I take a min to think about it one emotion says I just don't want to meet all these new people and another says I'm nervous about it.

It seems like I just instantly go into these social situations with the thought that I probably won't like any of these people, I don't want anything to do with them, and I just wait for it to be over. And I think that stems from me just not caring about people in general, I don't care about their problems, I don't care about knowing them. But my emotions just swing so much that the next day I could be lonely and depressed.

I think a lot of this comes from being more of an outcast growing up and only getting along with a select group of unique individuals.

It's all really conflicting, I think I need to go see a psychologist.

10-15-2009, 10:57 PM	#6 (permalink)
Hotrox Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 3	Well it's not just that one isolated instance that's causing all this confusion... it's just a bunch of things being crammed together. For example tomorrow my room mate is having a party at our apartment and obviously I'm going to be here but I really just don't want to participate. I just can't figure out why; if I take a min to think about it one emotion says I just don't want to meet all these new people and another says I'm nervous about it. It seems like I just instantly go into these social situations with the thought that I probably won't like any of these people, I don't want anything to do with them, and I just wait for it to be over. And I think that stems from me just not caring about people in general, I don't care about their problems, I don't care about knowing them. But my emotions just swing so much that the next day I could be lonely and depressed. I think a lot of this comes from being more of an outcast growing up and only getting along with a select group of unique individuals. It's all really conflicting, I think I need to go see a psychologist. Last edited by Hotrox; 10-15-2009 at 10:59 PM.