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Originally Posted by Dimond  Vermilion (and anyone else struggling), it makes no sense to spend years wanting to make a change and doing nothing. Just do something, anything even small to get yourself away from your current situation. It can be take a class or workshop, it could be join a group, take up a new hobby, anything you can possibly do so you aren't just unhappily thinking about doing something for years. Minor action leads to all kinds of things. It's not necessary to know anything for sure when you make these small choices. Whatever you have a slight interest in, explore until you find something you love. Then eventually you take more action and hopefully you will end up turning your life into one you enjoy. Anything is better then just sitting around being miserable. |
I've taken up several new hobbies over the course of this time, and either I get tired of them after a few weeks, or I don't have time to finish projects I start (which suggests I'm not that interested anyway), or (like knitting and tennis) they cause me to aggravate old injuries and I have to stop before I cause permanent damage. So far, minor action has only led to further frustration and dissatisfaction. I'm running out of hobbies that don't have enormous startup costs, and of course I haven't yet found anything I'm interested in that I could ever get someone to pay me a living wage for.
That said, I'm not horribly unsatisfied with my job. What I actually do, I do enjoy for the most part. It's the having to get up and be somewhere at a certain time, and having to drop what I'm doing and answer the phone when it rings, that aggravates me most. I'm a hardcore introvert, and having to deal with other humans for 8 hours a day drains my batteries something fierce, but I haven't yet found a way to keep myself alive that doesn't involve dealing with people all day long every day. I don't mind if they're there, but I really wish they'd leave me alone and let me work.
I guess what I mean is, the cubicle isn't so horrible for me, it's those people who insist on invading mine that I have a problem with.