This is nice and all, and it's very empowering and inspiring to hear these things, but every time I hear something like this I get depressed.
Why? Because I'm ready to change things, I really am, I just don't know what I want to change them to. I've been waiting for years to have some idea of what to do. I'm bored, I'm not being challenged. There's plenty of things that I could change, but I have no direction. I only know what sorts of things I don't want, and have no idea what I do want.
The last time I was happy was in college, taking random classes that didn't count towards my degree. I ended up dropping out of college because no matter how many times I changed my major, I couldn't stay interested in the required classes long enough to bother to keep showing up after the first semester or so. However, I haven't found a way to get paid to research something for a few months and then switch topics, and at some point you have to admit that if I quit my job and spent a few months in a library I would eventually starve to death.
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