Current I've done it again. I am literally living in filth. Ash trays filled to the brim, miscellaneous bags of trash, used plates, empty cans and bottles are littered around my living room. I even cleaned up two days ago - you should have seen it then. My kitchen is a hazardous waste zone. Dishes are in the sink from weeks ago, the counters have leftover residue from microwaveable meals and cheese dip. The trash is overflowing. The bathroom is a mess - I won't go there. My room is inviting. Clean clothes intertwined with dirty are strewn across the floor. Its as if my closet has initiated a full-scale invasion of my sleeping space. This is my first challenge. I need to clear the space. My living environment is a product of my mental cluttery. By the time this is posted I'll pick up the trash. Tomorrow I'll clean up the apartment. Fresh and anew. Brief
Day one of my darkworker transformation. I decided that some active first steps need to be taken to shift my paradigm. Anything to break the neuron-chains of bad habits in my head, forcing a chink in their rusty armor. Most of my day has been spent thinking and writing about polarizing to a darkworker, culminating with the creation of this thread. In that end I've had a good day. I feel better already! Since I know I have my work cut out for me, I've come to the conclusion that a series of 30-day adjustments are required to complete my transformation and truly begin this adventure. I've narrowed it down to the physical, financial, and social aspects of my life. I'll start in that order; working out releases endorphins and is a large step in the right direction. Additionally I will work on my inner game - my personal growth and spirituality - by meditating, reading, writing, and sharing my victories and struggles with this forum.
Tasks- Immediate
- Pick up trash
- Push ups
- Meditate
- Short-Term
- Clean up apartment
- Create workout schedule
- Update Thread
Recap and Alignment
This is a good finish to the first day. The hard part is going to be tomorrow. I have a tendency to start off well and then falter in my endeavors, but being accountable to this forum will help me overcome that. Writing my initial post helped clear the air and prepare myself mentally for what lies ahead. Keeping the thread updated with my transformation through my Darkworking posts is something I will do at least 5 times per week. I'm excited! I look forward to hearing anyone's thoughts, suggestions, comments, complaints, whatever!
Until then...
celestialife