One thing I want to say about all of this process of automatic writing, or translating of any kind: try not to look at it as such a linear process--i.e. something that you just "switch on" and you can do it, and that it's either on, or off, or you have it, or you don't.
I'm exaggerating it a bit by saying it like that, but I think people tend to look at things like psychic ability, automatic writing, intuition, etc, compare themselves to others who can do it--people like Erin or Slade who do it for their profession--or even to their strong desire to do it and then say "well, relative to other people who can do it, or relative to my desire, I'd prefer to have bigger, better results." I can relate to that desire.
But in my experience, at least when you look at other people, it's sort of like looking at the ending scene of a movie--you see a person who has overcome all of the challenges and reached the victorious climax of the "movie." The beginning scenes and portions of the "movie" aren't always evident from looking at them or their work or their site (although I feel
Anna Conlan,
Erin, and
Slade do a good job of sharing their journey). I'm not saying that it has to be a path of struggle or anything, but the experience does have to unfold.
My experience with this evolved gradually, as my desires relating to it (and other things) continued to evolve. E.g. When I first started writing, I felt my posts weren't making the sort of impact I wanted, and so my desires evolved. Then I started getting in the flow and my posts started feeling more like the type of posts I desired--I felt I was sharing things that were more helpful. Then I desired other things in relation to other areas, and those desires manifested, too. Not all at once, mind you--and at the time, I didn't even realise that some of my desires had unfolded (I was mainly too focused on new desires, or the absence of their manifestation in my experienced
). Even this realisation that I'm sharing here is coming about
now as I write this--this place of understanding that I haven't been before that's flowing through me as I express this to you.
Life is more of a very interesting unfolding, rather than a series of goals you reach. So my point is, relax and enjoy the unfolding. If something isn't working, that's okay. Enjoy what is working--and there are so many things that are working. In my experience, my desires to tend to slip through the cracks when I'm least focused on making them happen--when I'm in a state that allows them to happen (such as when I was writing posts for people, not at all trying to manifest any of my desires, and first noticed I was doing "this"--"automatic writing"--which was indeed an aspect of a desire I didn't consciously realise I had at the time).