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sweetbutt · 10-09-2009, 10:55 PM

Hello all of you

I'd love to hear some of your perspectives on my situation and get closer to grasp of it

I think the time's arrived to really discover my purpose. yep. THAT one. the real one.

but there's a little "problem"!!

I've been terribly happy all thrughout these years!

and I still am!!! really happy and I'm actually doing what I wanted to do: a musician

but... let me explain a bit

you should know that I've "unconsciously" been into personal development since a long long time...I'm sort of "planned" to develop myself and become a better person day by day, month by month year by year etc...
but didn't ready any book since I felt this was a natural process... I just didn't think that there could be some wonderful reasources to implement in this process
this until june of 2008 when I bumped into the secret and discovered the loa and felt that, yes, apart from "anything is possible" what more sucked me in was "you can create anything you want"

thru' this year and a half I read many books, a learned many things, experienced many others about this awesome possibilty. awesome.
considering I know that if I'm able to "create" experiences shaped from my tastes and creativity...I know I'm going to live an a.m.a.z.i.n.g. life.

so..."you're happy already! what else you want?" you might say.

but since this summer a constant thought is waving in my mind. constantly appearing (and when it happens is surely something I've got to learn from..as it always happened)
that I'm definitely here for something specific. and I'm not sure is about music. well not being the main pivot.

I'm not sure.I still keep the door open anyway. but for sure there must be some re-balancing and some re-configuring on my "job"

reasons are some and are quite "weighty".

I share two for now.. the big ones

- being part of the "art world" is something I honestly don't care about.
I've never felt like an "artist", never felt part of this system. but there've never been an inside "fight" ... I just never cared nor thought about it.
this world generally tends to a sensible amount selfishness and fakeness referred to certain areas like: photosessions, interviews with awfully idiot questions and so on

(talking about music scene I've experienced but more generally the music field.)
and actually this leads to a pretty much narrowed synergic cooperation with human beings

this is actually fine with me. is just something I don't feel want to be part of.
I'm definitely a lightworker

- I do not get any particular "fuel" from playing in front of an audience tough when there's an energy flowing between us and them is great...in few words I enjoy it when it happens but I'm not willing to devote my life to live shows. (this collides also with the fact I'm not a party boy, I don't like go to be late at night and stuff like this... I love to watch the moon, or walking in a forest, or watch cargo boats arriving at the dock listening to "prelude to 110 or 220 women of the world" by jim o'rourke

...
I KNOW I have to flow with nature and its rhythms.

even though there are some other things I'm considering I stop here for now
I'd love to hear your perspective on this

you know, when you start from a annoing situation, from feeling bad, from a terrible job, for me it would be easy to find a way out, to plan a creative strategy to get off the mud...

but as I told you I'm happy

I know I'm in a great position but I feel that my work is "just fine" like steve said about his game dev. job.

and I don't want to that to be "just fine"

I want my life to be great. period.

but most of all: I want to do what I'm here for..I feel there's something

something that has to do with

- playing with creative ideas that bring evolution to the world
- travelling for my purpose (not for tourism)
- cooperating powerfully with other people for the good of the earth/world
- doing same thing with myself alone
- follow mother nature's cycles
- "recreating the joy" (this is something I heard as soon as I switched the radio on years and years ago...it never left me since that day)
- having terribly fun

ok..these are the "safe" clues I focused so far..

I wait for you precious "external views"

ccciao!

10-09-2009, 10:55 PM	#1 (permalink)
sweetbutt Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 7	How can I make my life great? Hello all of you I'd love to hear some of your perspectives on my situation and get closer to grasp of it I think the time's arrived to really discover my purpose. yep. THAT one. the real one. but there's a little "problem"!! I've been terribly happy all thrughout these years! and I still am!!! really happy and I'm actually doing what I wanted to do: a musician but... let me explain a bit you should know that I've "unconsciously" been into personal development since a long long time...I'm sort of "planned" to develop myself and become a better person day by day, month by month year by year etc... but didn't ready any book since I felt this was a natural process... I just didn't think that there could be some wonderful reasources to implement in this process this until june of 2008 when I bumped into the secret and discovered the loa and felt that, yes, apart from "anything is possible" what more sucked me in was "you can create anything you want" thru' this year and a half I read many books, a learned many things, experienced many others about this awesome possibilty. awesome. considering I know that if I'm able to "create" experiences shaped from my tastes and creativity...I know I'm going to live an a.m.a.z.i.n.g. life. so..."you're happy already! what else you want?" you might say. but since this summer a constant thought is waving in my mind. constantly appearing (and when it happens is surely something I've got to learn from..as it always happened) that I'm definitely here for something specific. and I'm not sure is about music. well not being the main pivot. I'm not sure.I still keep the door open anyway. but for sure there must be some re-balancing and some re-configuring on my "job" reasons are some and are quite "weighty". I share two for now.. the big ones - being part of the "art world" is something I honestly don't care about. I've never felt like an "artist", never felt part of this system. but there've never been an inside "fight" ... I just never cared nor thought about it. this world generally tends to a sensible amount selfishness and fakeness referred to certain areas like: photosessions, interviews with awfully idiot questions and so on (talking about music scene I've experienced but more generally the music field.) and actually this leads to a pretty much narrowed synergic cooperation with human beings this is actually fine with me. is just something I don't feel want to be part of. I'm definitely a lightworker - I do not get any particular "fuel" from playing in front of an audience tough when there's an energy flowing between us and them is great...in few words I enjoy it when it happens but I'm not willing to devote my life to live shows. (this collides also with the fact I'm not a party boy, I don't like go to be late at night and stuff like this... I love to watch the moon, or walking in a forest, or watch cargo boats arriving at the dock listening to "prelude to 110 or 220 women of the world" by jim o'rourke ... I KNOW I have to flow with nature and its rhythms. even though there are some other things I'm considering I stop here for now I'd love to hear your perspective on this you know, when you start from a annoing situation, from feeling bad, from a terrible job, for me it would be easy to find a way out, to plan a creative strategy to get off the mud... but as I told you I'm happy I know I'm in a great position but I feel that my work is "just fine" like steve said about his game dev. job. and I don't want to that to be "just fine" I want my life to be great. period. but most of all: I want to do what I'm here for..I feel there's something something that has to do with - playing with creative ideas that bring evolution to the world - travelling for my purpose (not for tourism) - cooperating powerfully with other people for the good of the earth/world - doing same thing with myself alone - follow mother nature's cycles - "recreating the joy" (this is something I heard as soon as I switched the radio on years and years ago...it never left me since that day) - having terribly fun ok..these are the "safe" clues I focused so far.. I wait for you precious "external views" ccciao! Last edited by sweetbutt; 10-09-2009 at 10:59 PM.