yes... limiting beliefs are part of this. i know they are there, and they seem planted pretty deeply... i don't even know if that makes sense. but when multiple docs tell you, this is permanent, when they show you a picture of your spine, with a pic of a 'normal' one for comparison... you can guess what that is like, (i am keeping the LOA *out* of this example
- you truly deserve full health and wholeness at every level).
part of it i think is the spiritual reasons behind the experience... again i won't get into the details because it sounds really odd, i checked and rechecked to be sure i heard it properly... basically the experience has allowed certain circumstances that fulfill a spiritual need.
but physical pain is, unpleasant. most of the time i don't focus on it, but i feel it wearing on my emotional body sometimes... not always... but sometimes... i dunno, one could argue it fits with the wounded healer archetype - but the way the paradigm is shifting, allows for the release of that pattern. besides, there have been other wounds i can draw from to connect with others for healing with compassion...
i sense, this post, sounds or reads energetically like i am dooming myself to have this situation remain as it is... see what i mean about the limiting beliefs being deep in there, so that i don't even notice until i reflect? ugh... that annoys me, cuz usually i am very good at - in the moment - oh, this is what i feel/think/believe, it is not in my best interest, so i choose to let it go. i would very much like to apply that approach to this situation. i don't see myself 'doomed' with this... or i would love to dig deep and release any beliefs that would energize that idea.
marinik, hopefully we will find a way to transcend the situation. thanks to all who have posted so far, and advance thanks to anyone else who offers ideas.