thank you annie!
i have noticed there is a stigma around chronic pain, especially for spiritually minded love-n-lighter types. (herniation is involved in the issue for me as well, had several procedures, epidurals, etc. but full blown surgery is not currently a good option for me.)
so it is also like i feel... well, like i am expected to just push through it and have a bounce in my step... some days, i do, and i am so grateful for that! lately i have been smiling for no reason (don't you love that?)... i read in a magazine that facial expressions will create the emotion. and then when my back bothers me more, i am (honestly) grateful for a chance to slow down and rest.
so yeah... i do really appreciate the authenticity annie! as you said there will probably be differing responses. and i'm thinking, while i appreciate sharing a similar experience... at the same time i'd certainly looove some hope! (i have hope for many many things, but this issue... not so much. i feel doomed to take opiate meds... i am still hoping that the applicable fields will discover a sure-fire, minimal-risk corrective option.)
not too long ago i was reading about disc herniation online and ran across some articles that said, with the proper amount of rest, etc., the herniation often heals on its own. i had a twinge of anger in that moment, with the docs i saw in the beginning of all this, for them not mentioning the self-healing thing. (i am 26 yrs old... got a lot of livin' to do.)
anyway, i kinda started to ramble. it is just nice to feel like someone out there understands, thanks.
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