[Fifth_Column_Media]

Apparently this weekend I'm feeling a little insecure as the other day I was bothered by critique of my online publication and today I'm starting to wonder if I'm on the right path or if this is only a stepping stone.

For those of you who haven't seen my other posts I think I'll give you a little background on me. I'm 22, I run a new internet magazine and I go by D.A.N. (my initials). I thought for the two months that I've been working and writing for the magazine that it was my purpose, because its geared towards changing the world for the better and that is very important to me.

I'm doubting things though because the more I write, the less coherent it becomes. I mean I can write decently, but they never seem to come out really how I want. In things like art and music, I find it significantly easier to express myself, (especially music as that is my first passion) but when I write things they just seem to get jumbled and I end up not satisfied with it. I have places to display my art and music on the magazine site, but I don't have the means to do so at this time, plus its hard to gain interest without articles.

I thought maybe I am actually supposed to be a musician, or a music reviewer or something music related but I don't know anymore as although I would like that, its hard to make your living playing music at 22 and its hard to change the world playing blues in a smoky bar.

I know I want to change the world because I get upset about the problems I see, but I don't think I know enough to be a leader or if I want to be one, (I do know I care about people but that doesn't seem to be enough some days).

I'm planning on trying Steve's "find your purpose" exercise again and see what comes up, but I thought I'd see if anyone else has this problem, or can offer me some advice on getting past the doubt.

Thanks everyone, I think you'll hear from me a bit on this forum now as it seems like everyone is very friendly, intelligent and willing to help or offer positive criticism, unlike a lot of places I've seen online.