Hi everyone, This is my first post on the forum.
To begin with, there is this issue that i would love to learn and hear opinions from anyone who could help me. I will try my best to be as detail as Here's my story:
The person whom made me change my physical appearances/dress sense and style was this lady that I am in love with. After she commented on my acne-scarred face and my dress sense, I was initially depressed and went on a downward-spiral thinking that all these changes couldn't happen and she will never accept me...However, i met this guy friend of mine, who passed me the ebook by David Deangelo (Double your Dating). After reading that book, my life and mindset practically changed. I began focusing on the way i carry my poise/ dress sense and even apply for a facial regime to take good care of my face.
Slowly, the outer physical side of me began to change for the better. I feel more confident of myself and the way i socialize with people. I went back to her and thought that i am ready for her. However, after being intimate for 2 days, she went missing again and began the silent treatment towards me. Never hear from her for a month, I msg her that i wish her all the best in her life and we shall never meet again. From that point on, i carry on with my life and began to take more good care of myself and enjoy socializing with friends that i had neglected during the phase of depression. Thereafter, my social circle began to improve.
During this phase, I frequent pubs and clubs. In the back of my mind, i am always wary to prevent myself from getting emotionally involve with girls. Until recently, i met a girl in the club who treated me really well. We shared moments of intimacy and she even help me source for a temporary job when she knew i was out of job for the moment. I am really touched and make an effort to find a job asap so that i will not let her effort go to waste. I thought that I've finally found someone whom I could began a loving relationship with. However, i was wrong. Once again it is a 2 days event. After the 2nd day, the disappearing act began. No word from her anymore. Initially for the first 3 days, I began spiraling downwards again. Asking myself why did I met up with such a person again. But i told myself i have to be strong if not what I've learn so far in changing my mindset would have gone to waste.
I've read Steve's post on personal development and I took a step back to observe the situation. If I am to blame on the other party for what they are to do to me, I will be blaming the outside world for causing me to feel bad. I realize that the problem lies with me, but i am not sure what it is. The Law of Attraction attracts situations and people we meet in our life. So I am wondering what is the signal that I've been sending out to the universe that cause such scenarios to happen time and again? Why does these 'disappearing acts' keep happening? How can i use and understand the concept of the law of attraction to began changing my mindset and attract the things i want in my life?
I hope that everyone could share with me and I hope to learn as much as possible. Sorry for the long post and I hope that the story is detail enough to point out the problems in me that i had. If u require additional details, please ask me and i am willing to share more as i am dying to understand what's wrong with me and how should i change for the better now.
A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!!