Hello people!
The last couple of months I've been facing great unhappiness, and I haven't understood why. I recently came home after a 10 month high school exchange in Germany. And although I encoutered a lot of challenges in Germany, I always felt that I was somehow doing what I was
supposed to be doing. I felt I was fulfilling my destiny in a way. Now, having returned back home I have slipped back into old patterns and I feel kind of empty inside. I have tried to meditate more, tried to surrender to the now more and so on. But the feelings of negativity doesnt seem to abide. Today I talked to my parents, because they asked me whats going on with and why I seem so lifeless. And I really couldnt answer why. I just feel the way I do. During the conversation we realised that my in a way is connected with following the path of others and not really being active myself. I think I have a kind of "life purpose" issue. I really feel connected to doing something for this earth, but it is something that hard talking to others about. Today I joined the Norwegian environmentalist youth organisation. And I am searching for some kind of spiritual/personal growth group in my city.
Has anyone here experienced this kind of "dark night of the soul" (I am taking the expression from Steves book)?
And do you guys sometimes feel a bit alone with all this personal development stuff?
It felt better just typing this stuff down really...
Anyways, much love to you all
