I am not going to judge you for what you want to do with your life
I personally think stripping in the presence of a lover is very sexy
but
stripping in front of a group of people may seem that you have power over them
but it is a false power
as said before you can 'feel' powerful by developing yourself as the person you were meant to be -this takes serious introspection and time
and tell yourself you are worth it
because you are