[cbreeze]

I'm sad for you Isis. I was in the same predicament which, and hate to say, I created for my higher fullfillment/learning/accomplishing. All of your posts were so in-sight-full - Janlee - hats off to you - I had suffered from CD as well and had to live for awhile in my mother's condo after she committed suicide from CD her whole life and just couldn't do it - after taking major loss and almost giving it away I'm better off in the little studio by myself and dealing w/certain (a lot) of issues of mine that I'm so done with. Isis, it's hard to move past the burdens that seem to be thrown at you leaving you in a tail spin which only attracts more as, how can it not for it's inevitable to focus on what you had and what you have. YOU MUST take back your control and focus on what would make you feel better w/yourself and safer. Too many negative irons in the fire and you're overwhelmed, I can understand. Baby steps? Sounds easy, but, you've GOT to move on anyway you can - ATTRACT ppl that will help you, like the ppl here in this awsome forum for starters - then human angels..... so to speak, will guide you out of this palace filled with past haunts - be in home/mind/body. You'll be in my positive/energy/lvg thoughts.... LOA!