Hi Kali
Please dont give up coming to the forums, loads of people do care about u here and wish u well. All the advice is given with love... it is hard to know what is going on in peoples' minds.. none of us can know that and we shouldnt judge people - we dont have the right to do that.
I wish u well in ur efforts to cope with ur depression, do whatever feels right to u... maybe having someone to talk to - counselling - might help. I know it helps me.
Whether ur depression is chemically related or not doesn't really matter, and we can never measure ourselves against others .. thats not the way... we can only look at ourselves, see where we are in life and look for ways to deal with things.
I have suffered from depression all my life (am now 50) and my bro committed suicide at 18 (30 yrs ago now) because he was depressed. I never took any antidepressants until last Nov when my life completely exploded... my ex was arrested for abusing 2 boys we used to care for.. i had to move countries and live at my sis's flat now.. everything has gone.. but I am still here and i have to deal with the fallout.. I have no contact with my ex as I am going to be a witness for the prosecution... we were tog 17 yrs and it was v hard for me to believe he had done it. But i believe kids dont lie.. and after being sexually abused himself u'd think he'd know better.. I was abused in every way as a kid, and i couldnt imagine going back to that house - it must be a nightmare scenario for u.. I couldnt go back anyway cos its been demolished.. but even driving past the area gives me the creeps..
so how u r living there i don't know. U must be a very strong person inside.. Sometimes life throws stuff at us.. it doesn't really matter what it is .. its how we deal with it..
and u know what, only U, know how to deal with it...
take care, and i wish u all the very best in whatever U decide to do..
love and light
janlee x
PS Quote from Carl Jung: Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding
of ourselves.
