Dear Isis Kali,
I agree that you need to move unless you can quickly control the spell this house has you under. While I understand the concept that some people have expressed here, sometimes you feel too bowed down to feel positive. It soudns like moving there has stirred up many unhappy memories for you. Why put yourself in that situation?
What is the arrnagement under which you've moved there? I understand that your Grandfather is happy to have you there, but it sounds like you are putting others' needs before your own. Is there some way you can relieve your Grandfather's distress without causing any distress for you? I'm with HolisticStar about your sister... Surely there can be a way that you can have a better life through this tho?
I agree thinking positively can help and all, but it sounds like the place is psychically oppressive for you. Be kind and loving to yourself first. You can't care for others (your Grandfather) unless you are well. So get yourself well again and see what you can do then.
Much love to you
Hazel
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