Hi!
Thank you all for your replies. They are helpful.
I ought to point out first, that I don't suffer from my condition, unless the bad taste of the powder I have to drink for the diet could be seen as causing suffering...to my taste buds. There is no visual evidence that I have this disorder, except as it shows up in my blood tests. Other evidence of it is not 100% discernible, as Oliver pointed out, it affects the brain and its functioning, also the psychology, which I don't really have a perspective on when I am experiencing it - and then these effects are only present when I am not on the diet.
To Oliver - you are right, if you replace "low-protein" with virtually "no-protein." There is a diet powder that makes up the majority of my daily food allowance (but not all) and the powder is very expensive (more than €300 for a month's supply). The powder contains all amino acids in protein except for phe.
To Lil Chris and outback - My condition isn't really a disease, it just "is" and, like I mentioned, I don't suffer from it, as far as I am aware, at least any symptoms are not conclusively due to the disorder. I don't feel it is a bad thing, really, the diet is just a pain and a huge hinder in social life and convenience. The worst scenario would be in pregnancy and not being on the diet, because, as Oliver mentioned, the development of the baby's brain will be inhibited if I am not on the diet.
I would just like to be like others in this respect.
Outback - actually, some years ago I did pray for this disorder to vanish from my body, and this past summer, based on blood tests, I began to think my body was beginning to manage more quantities of phe than before and this past fall I was eating much more phe than I was supposed to. Though when I got the results of the blood test back from that time, the phe levels were way too high.
Wording - I got a bit obsessed with wording after my first intention, because as I got more information about the situation, I began to think - oh, evidently I should have specified this and this in my wording (even though in my mind when I made the intention and its wording, all of the circumstances I desired were implied), because I did not mean it should turn out this way (it has not really turned out yet at all, but still in progress, but the information I got made the situation much more complicated and difficult than I had known when I made the intention). For example, if you intend for a soul-mate or a loving relationship, you have to add to your intention/wording that the man in question not already be married...?? Some things ought to be understood, but I began to get scared that I have to think of every scenario imaginable and specify in the words and be aware of all the scenarios in my intention that, for example, the person be single, or free, and moral, etc...
This saying "be careful what you wish for" - I am not afraid of what I wish for, but that somehow I will leave some detail I could never have imagined or foreseen out of my intention and out of my awareness and then some twisted version of my real intention will come about.
Well, I guess I have to lose that idea so it doesn't happen.
Thank you all again for your feedback
