I know the feeling, believe me, for I am a child of Saturn also.
I also know the feeling of growing up with a lot of fear and sexual abuse in a dark house in a dark and scary neighborhood. I know the layers and layers of rock-like stuff that lays down in you.
I know how much better I feel when I am away from heavy environments, and I know how it all comes back like a ton of bricks when I come back to them.
I also know the gifts of Saturn, and I know that you shall know them too, in your time. And I think that you would not, at length, trade them for any amount of what the world calls success.
Others may advice you to cheer yourself up. I say, "when in deep water, become a diver." "When fishermen can't fish, they mend nets." "Consider the uses of adversity."
Feel it all, stay with it, unpack it and you will find that your darkness is full of information and wisdom. Don't be in a hurry, your soul knows what it is doing.
I wish you all good things. You are on my buddy list, by the way.
This is from Thomas Moore's
Care of the Soul:
Quote:
Maybe we could appreciate the role of depression in the economy of the soul more if we could only take away the negative connotations of the word.
What if depression were simply a state of being, neither good nor bad, something the soul does in its own good time and for its own good reasons? What if it were simply one of the planets that circle the sun?
One advantage of using the traditional image of Saturn, in place of the clinical term depression is that then we might see melancholy more as a valid way of being rather than as a problem that needs to be eradicated. ...
Melancholy thoughts carve out an interior space where wisdom can take up residence.
-- Beliefnet.com |
Much love
Megan