I had a phone reading with Erin on Tuesday, and thought I'd write about the experience. Erin - if there's anything here you can use for a testimonial, feel free!
Some background:
I have been stuck, lately - afraid to move forward with the knowledge I've gained. I was purposefully holding myself back - I've been eating tons of fast food, not meditating, watching dumb TV, etc. The image I got was that my car was running, and I was both behind the wheel AND the big strong person behind it, that was holding on to the bumper so the car couldn't move! Getting nowhere fast.
I had never tried consciously communicating with my spirit guides before I began reading Erin's blog and forum, about a month ago. I was open to the sub-conscious information I got - but had never considered having a "conversation". I am a reiki master, and most times when I'm giving reiki to someone, I "pick up" on an image, or thoughts, that I pass on to the client -- and what I see is usually right on, and deeply meaningful to the person, even if I don't understand it. I've known enough to just go with that, to trust what I saw and communicate it. I've had people say "You should charge people for that! It's very valuable! I'd pay for it!!" but I didn't know if I could always "make" it happen. I was worried I'd put out my shingle, people would come... and I'd have nothing to offer. So I haven't been doing anything!
Well - I got my tax refund, and I had already planned on taking part of it to get a reading from Erin. I had no doubt this is what I needed to do -- until I actually sent the money! Then, those voices showed up -- Erin and Steve are just ripping people off! They are laughing at us, how gullible we all are! I can't *believe* I just gave her that money! LOL I thought, how interesting is the timing on that... I'm a big believer until it was time for me to invest a little! So I didn't give those thoughts any energy. I just thought, "Well, I'll know for sure after my reading."
The morning of my reading, I talked to my spirit guides -- I told them if there was something they needed to say to me, they better get in touch with Erin! I didn't want to waste my money -- this was their chance! LOL
When the reading began, Erin let me know they did come see her, that they had a message for me before she even asked. She told me the image she got was of me, on a basketball court, and I had the ball in my hands, I was on the free-throw line, ready to take the shot... and I'd dribble the ball, hold it in my hands, turn it a little, get ready to take the shot...dribble again, look at the ball... dribble again. I was afraid I was going to miss! She said the game is long, one shot won't make or break the game. She said, "You can go ahead and take the shot! Every shot is practice, even if the ball doesn't go in." Then she "checked in" again, and said, "Actually, every person on the court is going to help you get the ball in. You know, the people waiting for a rebound, so they can get the ball? They're there, but they'll hand the ball back to you." I said, "Everybody's on the same team." She confirmed that.
She said the message my guides had for her to give me was to trust and have faith in the universe's plan for me. I told her the basketball image really rang true -- but that I wasn't even sure where the goal was! When I've gotten quiet lately and asked myself what I want, what direction I wanted my life to go in, I wasn't getting a clear answer. In talking to Erin, I realized -- I have gotten a clear answer, I was ignoring it! Out of fear. I do want to develop my psychic abilities, I do want to help people with that.
When I read Erin's post on veganism, and how clear her channels became once she changed her diet, I realized why I'd been so out-of-control with the junk: I don't want the responsibility of this gift!
Erin said the guides were telling her it was time for me to make a decision and a commitment. I asked her about a personal situation in my life, and she reminded me to ask - What do *I* want? What would be best for me? and once I answered that, then everything would fall into place.
She gave me some suggestions for practicing with my intuition. She let me know my guides would be there if I developed a conscious communication with them, and kept that up. She said "You cannot fail." ('Cause everybody's on the same team, remember?) She let me know my guides would help me find a way to connect more strongly with them.
She also let me know my guides told her there was something from my past that really affected my self-worth, which had been tripping up my ability to move forward. I kinda knew that -- I don't remember anything in particular, but it's something I've always struggled with, my self-esteem. Lately, I've just been not giving any energy to those thoughts that tell me I don't deserve X, or I'm not worthy of a fulfilled life.
I got SO much from my reading! I can't recommend it enough - definitely worth the money!! lol Erin has a clarity and peacefulness that come through so strongly in what she says. And she's funny! I felt a deep connection the whole time we were speaking. I have NO doubt she's a very clear channel for what the universe needed to say to me.
I now have posted around my house: "I am loved and supported." "I cannot fail." and "I trust and have faith in the universe's plan for me." Everywhere I spend any time, so I can see them several times every day. That loved and supported thing is the one I need to take in most deeply. I was definitely feeling alone, and scared of my abilities. I now know I'm supported. By beings seen and unseen! That's all I've done so far, is just try to take that knowledge in - I am loved and supported. I can feel that knowledge growing in me.
Oh - I got a message of love through Amris that same day.
Messages of Love It's so funny - she said, "We stand before you, and beside you, and behind you. Four square we stand, surrounding you..." LOL I read that, and was reminded of Dean Smith's four corners offense, Carolina gal that I am.
I'm in the game! Taking that shot! Ready - one, two - whoosh! Nothin' but net!