Jason,
I too am having the same problem with subjective reality, however coming from a different place. I finally have arrived at the conclusion that my major problem is my use of skepticisim and doubt to control my perception of reality. I had first thought my problem was "self doubt", but now that seems to be rooted in my overly critical way of thinking about everything.
I searched Steve's blog archives and found two that hit the nail on the head. "Skepticism May Be Harmful or Fatal if Swallowed"
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/200...-if-swallowed/ and "The Death of Skepticism"
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/200...of-skepticism/ .
In these blogs he posits that skepticism "means to use doubt and disbelief as tools for understanding reality" and when you then use these "tools" upon yourself, you create self doubt.
Now heres my problem. I have used this analytical/critical/scientific/objective way of viewing reality and the universe for my entire life and it is very difficult for me to change my way of thinking towards the subjective. I am now wondering how to begin, but at least I feel as though I have identified the key issue that has been holding me back.
Steve does talk about a skeptics need to "test" reality and states that he himself "was a hardened skeptic" a "math and science guy". But I think when talks about "testing for subjectivity", an oxymoron in his words, he really gets to the heart of the matter.
In subjective reality you don't "test" anything. You
experience it. And the very act of "testing for subjectivity" requires you to suspend all of your doubts and limiting beliefs in order to truly experience subjectivity. I may be butchering this concept but you can read for yourself what he's going for.
I'm still trying like you to work this out in my head and trying to find a method for
suspending disbelief. The posts did give me my new mantra though,
"EXPERIENCE THE UNFOLDING MANIFESTATION"
Good luck on your quest