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Interesting thing your money experience, I had a near experience trying to get to Nirvana state when I was a boy. I read every book I could about it and did whatever they said, the posture, the breath, the relax, but I couldn't get it. No way, I tried very hard. It was impossible.

Months later, I went to my house, nobody was there, it was night, just saw a sofa and I felt like sitting there, just started relaxing, there was no time, no worries,just meditate, I didn't know how much time passed, I felt great. Later I got to a state of tremendous pleasure, like a continuous orgasm, but without sex and without boundaries. Like past live experiences, I don't know if it is real or just somewhat artificially accessing the pleasure centre on the brain.

I have not done that again, I felt I didn't deserved that, whatever it is, not the right moment.

Sometimes not trying to get something is the way to get it.

Psychic experiences: one day I saw a neighbour girl in dreams, I saw her face I had not sawn before, this day someone rings the door, it was her, my legs started to shiver, she took what she wanted and leave. As you say, this is so personal only you can believe when it happens to you, like when my cousin had her daughter talk to her about where she lived before being born.