[kyokushin]

"Valentine’s Day can bring a couple to make-or-break status"

Horrible Valentine´s Day. Never really cared about Valentine´s Day, but well, you have a girlfriend, you should do something. I mean, I don´t care about any holidays, be it Christmas or New Year´s Eve, a reason to celebrate something and most people seem to love these days. Not me. I´d like to see these days as ordinary days. I don´t want to feel under pressure because people expect everybody to act a certain way on a certain day.

As mentioned before in another thread, I´m not very social or outgoing, I prefer to be on my own reading a book or watching a film. My girlfriend thinks that it´s rather strange that I never seem to care about these things. I´m absolutely unromantic, that´s what she told me several times. But she likes me and it would be nice if I could try to be a little romantic every now and then. Well, I´m not really sure what that means. I never had a girlfriend before and I never try to act as if I´m someone else, I don´t pretend to be cool, romantic, funny or whatever. I am who I am. Sometimes she tells me that I´ve been cool or funny. Why? I don´t have a clue.

What am I supposed to do on Valentine´s Day? I don´t know. I never cared about Valentine´s Day. She has to work today (full-time), so we can´t really do anything today. So I told her that I would meet during lunch-break. I decided not do anything at all. Just meet her, go to a cafe and enjoy our time together before she has to leave for work.
The problems came before we even met. Why´s she supposed to walk to me? I could´ve come to her (or picked her up after work). Honestly, i didn´t even think about that. I might have been insensible, she had to work and felt tired and the least thing she wanted to do was walking around looking for me. It was raining and she wanted to know why I expected her to walk around looking for me? No answer, I just didn´t think about it. Neither did I have any plans to do something. I suggested to go to a cafe, but she complained that the cafe is not very comfortable. She needs a comfortable place to rest, to recharge her batteries. She complained that I´m always like that, I never know what to do.
That´s true. In the sense that I don´t think about these things. I would go to any restaurant and any cafe as long as it´s not too expensive. I suggested another cafe and she told me that she´s hungry, she wants to eat something. Half an hour had passed and time is important to her. I can´t understand this because I don´t have a job (not fulltime at least). This went on for awhile and we were just walking around aimlessly with her complaining about me. Finally she suggested a restaurant. A nice restaurant, we´ve been there before. Unfortunately, the comfortable seats weren´s available anymore. She told me that I don´t understand her and started to cry, went to the restroom and stayed there for ten minutes. When she came back she told me that she´s leaving. And she did just that.

I don´t know what to do, we never really had a fight before. This was the first time that we had a serious argument (we had a similar situation last christmas, she expected me to do something special, I didn´t want to to anything extraordinary and she told me that she felt disappointed about me and I´m unromantic,... but it turned out to be a memorable day and we had lot of fun despite all that, today was different). I thought about going to her workplace to talk to her, but didn´t know what to say. Well, she will leave in about five hours, time to analyze the situation.

Well, I don´t exactly know what I wanted to say. Just feeling a little confused. That´s it for now.